Uncomfortably numb

Just the basic hard facts of life…

Can you show me where it hurts?

Expectations

In the case of uncertainity, expectation is what is considered the most likely to happen. An expectation, which is a belief that is centred on the future, may or may not be realistic. A less advantageous result gives rise to the emotion of disappointment. If something happens that is not at all expected it is a surprise. An expectation about the behavior or performance of another person, expressed to that person, may have the nature of a strong request, or an order

~ Wikipedia

They often say ‘Never expect things’ from anyone.

Crap.

Most of you would agree with me how expectations are important and obvious. They do come up in some form or the other in any relationship. Lets not fool around by telling the world that we don’t expect anything, or rather preaching the same to them.

We do expect- and we must.

Oh yes, the level of these expectations matters a lot though. The more we trust, the more we tend to expect. Yes, really! Atleast I do. I always have a set of expectations laid upon for every relationship I share with people in my life. I even tend to let them know if these doesn’t get fulfilled (or pretend to).

What makes me write this? I don’t know, just spending my morning thinking over random lame things.

Lets expect!

Good day.

July wallpaper

I’m inspired and I thought I’ll make a wallpaper for this July. Here you are.

Pretty much describes what life is currently. And I still can’t sleep.

I Don’t Wanna Miss a Thing

There are a lot of songs that makes us think a lot. And the one I’m talking about is one of them. I don’t wanna miss a thing happens to be one of my favourite tracks by Aerosmith. And I’ve been listening to it a lot lately.

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I didn’t sleep last night. Not that I couldn’t. I just didn’t. Though today happens to be monday and would be so very occupied today. Still. Phewww!

I haven’t been thinking the whole night. Yes, a bit… but not like the entire night.

I don’t wanna close my eyes
I don’t wanna fall asleep
‘Cause I’d miss you, babe
And I don’t wanna miss a thing
‘Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I’d still miss you, babe
And I don’t wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I’m wondering what you’re dreaming
Wondering if it’s me you’re seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we’re together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I have not much to say this early morning. I’m just listening to this song and preparing myself for the day ahead.

I don’t wanna close my eyes
I don’t wanna fall asleep
‘Cause I’d miss you, babe
And I don’t wanna miss a thing
‘Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I’d still miss you, babe
And I don’t wanna miss a thing

I don’t wanna miss one smile
I don’t wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Oh and also on my list is to clean up my room this evening. Its a mess right now. Sorry, I know that was lame.

Don’t wanna close my eyes
Don’t wanna fall asleep
‘Cause I’d miss you, babe
And I don’t wanna miss a thing
‘Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
‘Cause I’d still miss you, babe
And I don’t wanna miss a thing

I don’t wanna close my eyes
I don’t wanna fall asleep
‘Cause I’d miss you, babe
And I don’t wanna miss a thing
‘Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I’d still miss you, babe
And I don’t wanna miss a thing

Don’t wanna close my eyes
Don’t wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don’t wanna miss a thing

Yawn!!!

Some Place Else

Its World’s Music day today and there was no better place to be than ‘Some Place Else’ here in Kolkata at ‘The Park’.

Its 3:30 am and I have no reason to fall asleep now. I enjoyed it like anything. I miss my digicam like anything right now, missed upon a few decent shots. But yeah the music was just too good.

The crowd in there was of totally mixed nature. It was a decent experience. I wanted to stay longer, but I wish, how I wish!!! All…all my friends wanted to come back home. Never mind. I enjoyed my time. A+++ to ‘Some place Else’.

“How I wish, how I wish you were here”

Heard a lot of Floyd. Wow. Wow (again). The first band I heard, called “The Hip-pockets’, were just awesome. They even made me groove to the cover of ‘That Thing you do’ by The Wonders.

You,
Doin’ that thing you do,
Breaking my heart into a million pieces,
Like you always do

Sunday now. Yes, lot of work. Good day.

So… So you think you can tell?…. Ummm!!!

I had to write tonight

Today was a mixed day.

I was at a friend’s place last night, and ofcourse I couldn’t sleep well. Rather its been quite some time that I got a decent sleep really. Me head is crashing. But I knew I had to write tonight. I just had to.

I’m loving the soft skills classes at college these days. And yes, a couple of classes a week keeps me motivated for the entire week. The classes are a lot of sense, unlike how most of my batchmates may percieve it as.

A lot of politics has been happening ever since we became seniors; for posts and power in the student council at my college. And at the end of this week, I’m quite relieved that things are happening close to what I had wanted. Closer. Not what I really wanted it to be. I really dont know how much I’m enjoying it though.

My head hurts a lot these days. I don’t know.

I went to the Mani Square, the mall, in the evening with a couple of friends. Both of them happen to be among my favourite people here in kolkata. Oh! before that, I spent the entire evening with both of them over carom, maggi, coffee, singing and listening to songs. Most of them being those evergreen ones. Thank you Sradha and Jagjit.

I’m liking my time here in Calcutta, not denying that. But I miss Delhi all so badly these days. Really. Vibhor your call the other day made me really nostalgic and I ended up watching way too sentimental music videos. Also a few pics of Mcleodganj on facebook reminds me of a few good times

I hate eating alone. Hmmm.

Anyways, so we sang old songs today. Old hindi songs, that is. I actually love some of the hindi old songs. It reminds me of so many things. Right now I’m thinking of my journey from Manali to Rohtang pass with college friends, a couple of years back. Anyone remembers what I’m talking of? Pheww…!

I’m not really counting my days here. This place has made me learn a lot. This place has also acquainted me with some great people. But I just so wanna move on.

I’m a guy who makes a lot of opinions. And who trusts it completely. I myself tend to hate it so much some times. But I just cant help it.

I trust my opinions, for just about everything. I have reasons to.

Its not rare these days, that I’m reminded by people, directly and indirectly, that how much I suck at relationships. I just laugh at it though. I don’t even consider that two month fling worth calling a relationship (this takes me 3 years back now). I don’t know what to say.

Like is more important than love for me.

I’m unable to stay in touch with a lot of friends these days. But I’m there guys. Just stick around.

As I saw this audio cd of Roger Water’s album in planet M, there was this huge smile on my face. Like those innocent smiles little children have (kindly bear with the over exaggeration). It made me happy. Very happy.

I love how they taught us at school, “little things matter much”.

I think I’m more or less done with this post.

On repeat mode tonight…

I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light

Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction

And I’m open to your suggestions

Goodnight.